The most profound experience I have had this holiday? You would think it would eminate from a mountain-top experience, a deep conversation, or perhaps an insightful book or a film. But it happened very mundanely as I waited for a bus.
A young boy was waiting at the bus stop. Pleasant enough, he struck up a conversation with me, really about nothing in particular, asking whether I knew when the next bus was coming. I wasn't sure but I reassured him it would be coming soon. As I observed him a bit more closely, I saw that he had a noticable limp, his right leg dragging slighty behind at an angle, which did not slow him down at all as he made a bee-line for the corner to check if the bus was coming down the street. I wasn't sure what ailed him exactly. He was a bit unkempt, as most kids his age I suppose are, but his clothes seemed a bit old, worn and dirty. He seemed poor, but loved, and his face held that look of an old soul, somehow weathered by knowing too much. I couldn't help but smile as he proudly told me that he was on his way to the video store to rent The Simpson's Movie, and to make sure that I ask the bus driver if he was going to the train platform so that I would make it safely to my destination. In my minds eye he was the proverbial Tiny Tim.
This past year I have been challenged by a small group of folks at a social justice group called Streams of Justice, to not only look at and be more aware of justice issues, but to somehow educate others, act, and live more justly. And one of the more challenging talks last year was about how children - a symbol of the most vulnerable in our society - should be at the center of our communities. The poor, the elderly, the weakest and most vulnerable, should be the center of our lives, and from there a more just world begins. The old adage that how a society treats it's most vulnerable is a picture of it's integrity.
I find this to be a difficult task at times. The refocus, the shift, and the change that is needed in our vision, thinking and lifetsyles respectfully. A change of center from ourselves or the illusions around us, to those broken, vulnerable and in need of healing. I am reminded the poor are everywhere around us... not just the physically poor, but emotionally, socially, intellectually - in our families, neighbourhoods, circle of friends and beyond. And what are we are called to do? There can be a sense of burden in serving one another rather than joy. Perhaps because we try to take it on all by ourselves? Perhaps because we think we hold all the power, answers and help? Perhaps because we are too tired or apathetic or unwilling to be vulnerable ourselves? The other side of the coin we sometimes miss are the gifts that the weakest and most vulnerable are holding out to us. The importance of receiving from them, as much, if not more than what we give. A joy that is perhaps easily missed.
So I wonder, how are we to reach out to one another, and build communites of love and care, centered around the poor, vulnerable and weak?
To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intake, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket — safe, dark, motionless, airless — it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.
- C.S Lewis, The Four Loves